Emily Winters
“Resurface”
(Is
everything in my head)
We
were something and this house
Had
breath,
Shuddering
around us as it laid us
To
rest
Am
I going down
The
long path to a forgotten memory
A
buried thought that is hiding somewhere in
A
crevice, the folds of my brain
Sheltering
the repressed the shudders
The
breaths
Living
thing
Roadkill
walking away
Hitch-hiking
one step at a time
In
time with my hitching chest as I flail and
Fight
with the air for my portioned share
Trying
to comprehend this madness
That
is life
Are
we all mad here
A
communal trip where we all
Suck
the marrow out of life
And
taste nothing but the acid at the end
Of
the line the liner of the bucket
As
the plastic gets all torn and my eyes
Go
blind with the resurgence –
Waves
threatening to whisk me away
To
the bad time
Deep
inside
Hidden
Shoved
behind the washer
Beneath
the rug, my memories are
Collecting
dust
But
I like them there – can’t you see
That
I do not want to see
What
you have made me
Into
this being of cruelty
The
crude caricature, a child’s drawing of me
The
repressed
Sheltering
the breaths, the depressed
The
mothers clutching their children
To
their heaving breasts, covering their eyes
So
that hopefully they have no time to see
The
bad thing and hopefully maybe their brains
Won’t
absorb the memories
And
maybe the young won’t be burned
But
did I imagine it all
That
this house had breath that sailed like daggers
With
each settle of its hindquarters and each creak
As
the basement dug deeper into Hell
Do
we all become mad when the memories
Rise
to the surface
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